dead bored

It's been weeks and this wait is killing me.


I have no idea how it got overly extended when i was told to leave between july 25-30. At first i thought it's going to give me more time to spend with my family, friends and more time to pack up and think of the things to bring there. But guess what, it only made me think stupid thoughts, do stupid things and waste more money. I didn't even had the time to pack up and fix things. All i did was party, go out of town, beach outings, go to friends' houses, get together with lost friends, eat, sleep and rot in movie houses. not to mention the boring dates with boring guys. i even missed out in many volunteer activities. uugghh. guess it's all about boredom and being stuck in the agony of waiting. I don't know it's like im going to die in a few days so I'd go and do things i used to do during college days. Im supposed to be done with parties and nightlife already. It's a sick routine I've been and i know its all vanity. For quite sometime i kinda lost focus on serious things that are supposed to be taken care of. Somehow i forgot the list of things to do i made months ago when i was thinking of leaving by the end of july.

Genesis called me and ask what have i been up to. I didn't show up to any of the meetings. Well i made another alibi when in fact i was just in the house sleeping because i had a hang over the other night. what a lame excuse. I couldn't tell him coz i knew he would just tell me to "graduate na ana gi oi!". BUt somehow i made him believe i was really busy over ..well nuthin. So anyway he asked me to meet up with cherry rose so we can make the agreement about the pc to be placed at their office as part of my investment in that cleaning business ..God knows if things will work out well. And I can't cough off any cash anymore i will need more cash when i get there. And the more days i spend here im gonna be spendin and spendin. Mama help!

So anyway, Mr.Solomon is not really clear about the article deadlines..but I'm still hoping to get some help from my FP buddies. I don't know if I can write for their column. Either I'm distracted or I just can't really come up with a worthy article. I guess he can't bug me yet because they better take care of my flight and ETD. And so last night i was happy coz Irene finally broke the greatest news! So i think the real wait is soon gonna be over. Well patience is a virtue but its obsolete now. I don't just wait, I wanna make things happen. I want it ASAP.